Hey my CHAMPIONS! Today is Wednesday Word. I hope this word encourages you on today. It’s actually a combination of Testimony Tuesday and Wednesday’s Word (I missed yesterday 😞👎), but I’m here today, Amen. So here is the word that the Lord put on my heart to share with you. Be blessed, stay encouraged and most of all stay in Faith.
Though your beginning was small, Yet your latter end would increase abundantly. – Job 8:7 NKJV
At the beginning of 2017 as I was in fasting and prayer for my new year, the LORD spoke to me a word, INCREASE! Not just increase in your finances, but increase in your spirit, faith, heart, mind, business, career, children, marriage, health, relationships and any good thing He has called you to steward. With that being said, He also stated that your increase is tied to your obedience as well as your ownership in those areas of your life where lack is plaguing you. God said that He is ready to give you more as long as you are and have been faithful with the little that you have received; as long as you have cultivated, strengthened and stayed disciplined in that thing in which he has entrusted in your care.
Around late 2015, I was living in Las Vegas and attending The Gathering church. My pastor was teaching a great word from the LORD and while she was teaching, she suddenly stopped, looked at me and said, “Shebah, do not despise the days of small beginnings,” and went right back to teaching God’s word. I was astonished because I was given that exact word sometime before, so I knew that the LORD wanted me to understand something, but not just understand redirect my thoughts. If you don’t know me, I had been pursuing my Culinary dream for 11 years while living in Las Vegas and Los Angeles. I had become frustrated at the fact that I was pursuing something with such passion and dedication but felt like I got nothing rewarding or fulfilling from it, or if I did it was only temporary. My thoughts were very destructive and it showed in my progress. I became conflicted within myself and started to question whether Culinary was truly where not only I wanted to be, but if it was what God had called of me to do. So I was in this tug of war for a very long time with Culinary and something else that I didn’t even know I wanted to do but had secretly yearned for.
So, I had to get humble before the Lord and truly ask for guidance and God’s will for my life. I know most people don’t believe in a “higher power,” but I don’t look at God that way. I see God as my beginning and my end, this force that intercedes for me and wants to see me rise to become who He created me to be, who I know I am on the inside. One day I started to get this uncontrollable desire to write down all these stories that I had in my head. I had stumbled upon one of my old writing notepads from 2009 and inside of it was a story that I had been writing. I started to read over it and as I did, my hand just started to continue the story. After about 3 hours, I had written all my character bios, and at least 5 pages of the first chapter. I felt so excited and free. I felt like my true self. I felt like my voice was being heard. There was a weight that lifted from my shoulders that I can’t explain, but I felt like I was starting to take the first step into where God was leading me. Before I got too excited, I went to God and I asked Him, “Lord, if this be Your will and desire for me to write, then I give you all my creativity and ask that you bless my hands and thoughts. Guide my pen and increase my gift,” that was my prayer for myself.
Now for me the challenging thing was submitting my writings to different places, researching publishers and just letting others read what I have written. Now I must admit that I’m not a traditional writer, but I know that my writing is a gift from God. I’ve always been good with my words on paper and in school I was praised for my writing. Even when I went to Culinary School, my creative writing teacher saw that I had the gift of writing and that I should pursue that instead of culinary, but I didn’t really agree with her as far as making it my career even though I always wanted to write scripts and for tv shows. Due to my fears or inadequacies of not being good enough, I locked my gift of writing away and kept it buried and pursued culinary instead, but God had a different plan for me. God told me it was time for me to go back to the thing that He placed inside of me and that He anointed me to do and that was writing. Now I know that there are so many writers out there, with lots of followers and successful blogs, and yes at times I started to feel like I would never measure up and then I remembered what my former pastor told me, “Shebah, do not despise the days of small beginnings.” It lets me know to keep cultivating my writing, I know that God will answer my prayers, and I will be a successful writer. There has never been a prayer that God did not answer or bring to pass in my life. I know that as long as I keep cultivating my gift and turning those “no’s” into learning pieces and seizing moments to challenge myself and open up, God will reward my efforts. I know my blog may not be “popular”or I may not have millions of followers, but what I do know is I have this blog because I love to write, I love to share my words with others. I know my words have the power to change lives and to me that is more important than being popular. I know the right people will see what I have to offer and support me. I know my latter years will be greater than my former, because God told me so and He told me that as long as I stay grounded in Him, I’ll always be successful. I’ll always be victorious. I know my name will be great one day, but for now I’m enjoying the process and I’m enjoying finding out more about myself in my writing. Through it all I’ve seen increase in my faith, my resolve, my self esteem, value, emotions, mentality and my creativity. I’ve seen God increase me in ways that are more valuable than money because without these things first, I can’t have and maintain financial success.
So, don’t be afraid to be vulnerable. Don’t be afraid to stick with it and give it all you got. Do it because you love it, even when nobody is watching you, DO IT ANYWAY! Don’t quit and never give up because everything you’ve gone through has led you to this point where you will start to see momentum and increase. Progress is a process. Don’t worry about everyone you see moving ahead of you, stay in your lane, at your speed because that is where you are the most effective.